Fat Girl In A Skinny Body

What is it like ALWAYS chasing after a dream? My dream was about having a body that I was not ashamed of. I have always struggled with weight. I have been up 305# at my heaviest adult NON pregnant weight, and down.... 170 at my lowest. The journey; all I can say is it is a very long one. On my heavy weight I am non sexual. I do NOT dress up or really "do" my hair. I am tired exhausted. I eat. Then of course the scale goes up and I seem to care less and less each time it does. Then I try a few "fads" and lose a few pounds. Once I do, I give myself permission to have a treat. I deserve it right??? I worked hard I lost 4 pounds. Why cant I have 6 oreos??????

Look deep How many of you have been there?????

I was there. Now I am moderately happy with my body. The 170s are close again. I feel smaller. My wonderful husband tells me how great my butt looks.......I feel sexually alive. I dress cute and do my make up. Now though I am super critical about each pound and being thinner the 2# of period weight or bad eating one day are VERY visible.

I can say though that eating the ANEW program is THE CLOSEST I have come to being able to live this eating style. I hope to be able to encourage you in this journey. If you want to drop 100# do it!! If you want just 10 I am here too!!!

Please feel free to message, email, call or blog. I am loving life and hope you can too. It is NEVER too late and NO step is too small.

Peace,